Confession: Worst family part 2

This is part two   of a confession. To read part one click here.

So.. I went back home. Waited for dad to arrive and break the news. Bt.. I wasn't ready for what he said next.. He said he knew we had planned this and he wasn't going to pay my fees.

I tried to confront him about how he spoke about my boyfriend. Because what he had done was wrong but he said I was disrespectful and he would get me a curse. I tried to keep my cool.. But then I found out that he was abusive to my mum and his parents. He had done some really bad things.. I can't mention.. and he was at Frontline.. In church.. I felt soo disgusted by him.. I didn't even want to go to church...anymore.. Soo I stated at home.. Bt. After staying at home for 3 Sundays... he finally asked why i wasn't going to church.. I couldn't tell him I wasn't going because I was disappointed In him.. And what he had done.. Soo.. I lied I didn't believe in God.. Which is a lie.. I believe I. God and Jesus and their teaching.. 

He started Saying that's why I couldn't even manage my marriage. That's where I lost it.

 I told him he had ruined my marriage by treating my boyfriend badly. Instead of refusing to pay the fees. He just had to speak very bad about my boyfriend and now he was sick.. He got up and started beating me.. My mum and bro stopped him.. But I was chased away from home. I tried to call my boyfriend and tell him what had happened he just ignored me.

Soo I just went to my grandparents place.. I stayed there for a while.. Still knowing about all the bad things my dad had done... All the lies he fed me.. It was soo hard... The love of my life was ignoring me.. My dad is just terrible.. My mum got sick..

In the end. Mum called me. And said that I needed to apologize to dad.. So that he would pay my fees.. I lowered my ego and called him.. And apologized.. He forgave me and told me to come back home and soo I did.

Am still at home. Soo uncomfortable.. Soo broke No-one understands me.. Looking at memes to keep myself happy.. I just wish I could get out of here.. Get a job and be independent soo that I could get out of here. I Am still doing the course they choose for me.. I've learned to love it. I've fought depression all on my own... But am just tired. I lost my laptop also. I know this will bring up another bad fight with my dad... 

Am so sorry it's long

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