Period pain : confessions of Nepalese girl

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Female 24

"I feel mentally disturbed and tired😖

    “Kaam k cha ra period vako bela Khana pakaihalem vada nikaldinu na” heard her saying while I was suffering from period cramps.. like seriously if one women will not understand other women pain then what will be the meaning of living a life of women .. it’s been just 6 months I got married.. in few weeks peoples of society questioned “why you said yes to this marriage without knowing anything about them?”. I was so confused with their behavior how can they easily asked without any fear😧 I choose to remain silent.. everything was well before but suddenly their behavior changes. They start treating me like a servant.. as if I was only their for their house works. And I was amazed how they start backbiting and my sister in law she started provoking everyone. I don’t understand either she was jealous or something else…

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. I always used to support her no matter  what, never made her feel bad and treat her like my own sister.. one day I found she was provoking my husband in my absence but still I choose to remain silent..may be it’s my fault to treat her so nicely that she easily forgot the meaning of “RESPECT”. I had never seen a girl like her  in my  whole life such a mannerless, brainless and unashamed .

 Even she is a girl but she never understand my pain.. I wonder how she gonna handle her home after marriage  and she is so stubborn, childish and arrogant . They (sister-in-law and mother-in-law)  were so much interested on my jewelry, keeps on asking my jewelry on any occasion and one day my sister-in-law even provoke my husband to give all my jewelry to mom .. though it’s not a big deal i easily gave all my jewelry even my engagement ring also. 

They treat me so badly and use rough words in absence of my husband . My life was totally messing up..I still remain silent I never complained my husband about their nature thinking they are my family I have to deal with it no matter how hard the situation will be  until one day  I found she sold one of my jewelry I was literally shocked and told my husband without my permission how can she?  When my husband tried to talk with mom, she suddenly started crying and  make an excuse.. I easily forgave and forgot that too just because I thought she is my mother.. I was forced to do housework even on that day when I was sick Or on my period too. I have never seen such harsh women's in my life..

It was arranged marriage so I didn’t  wanted to see regrets on my parents face.. I choose to stay silent in front of my parents too.. Ma PaPa I wanted to cry whenever I visit home but I couldn’t because my situation gonna hurt you both deep down . My life is being hell day by day, they have complain in each and every things. No matter how hard I tried to make them happy, they find a reason to toucher  me. Their behavior is completely different when my husband is home, they treat me best but whenever he is outside they treat me differently. I am hurt and broken totally  .

Should I tell my husband about their behavior? I am afraid to express him , how he will react , will he trust me? I know I will still choose to remain silent because I don’t want to loose my relation with him😔 "