Imagination

 Long before I knew this day will come . To be honest, I had enough of everything, and that’s why death never scared me at all. Until my last breath, my arms were wide open as I welcome a visitor I’ve been waiting for so long. It was like I finally found my one true love. I admit I thought of killing myself a lot of times. There were nights, even days when the sun was in its brightest, when I was tempted to take the easy way out, yet I didn’t want to burn in hell. I won’t say I was a good person but I definitely believe in God. While I was waiting for this day to come, I was already dying inside. You hadn’t seen it, of course. What you saw was my silly face , my anger, my bad temper, my impatience, my drunk state and stupid me. 

What you saw was the monster inside me slowly taking over my whole body, but you didn’t even recognize that. You thought it was still me. Somehow, you were right. The monster was still me no matter how much I didn’t want to associate myself with it. I gave it a place to stay. I fed it and I let it grew inside me. I even befriended it. Little by little, we became one.

I wrote this letter without knowing when and how I’d die.

Almost a suicide note from my imagination

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