Healing

Being in a relationship is fun and great but after that relation broke you become sad and try to blame every one any any thing that's infornt of you.

It is common to think that you cannot live without certain persons who are close to you.When you are in a relationship you start to think that your whole world is that person.You love them unconditionally and you love them hard.But when that all this relationship things came to an end the whole world gets shattered in front of you. You loose your mental state. You gets hurt, you start to get angry with yourself and others.you start to question your our life decisions. You start to hate your self and your life.

But the fact is all these feelings are not permanent.And i am not making assumptions. These are fact from my own experience.

I used to be in a relationship with a girl whom i meet in a high school. We were complete stranger when we met. We become closer and closer day by day.Soon our strangeness turned into friendship and we become friends. We used to chat daily and then as time go by we become best friends. Like people say a boy and a girl cannot become just friends. Soon it turned into relation and after dating for five years we broke up.But the end of the relationship was not nasty and mess.It was mutual. We decide to become friends and keep our relation that way. After that i take time and gradually increase distance from her. And at the same time i was friend with another girl And the history repeats itself.

I got close and eventually get in a relationship. Silly me uhhh.

And got breakup.But this time it was nasty as f. She cheated on me.After 1 year of relationship she decided to cheat on me and i found out and we broke up.There was a huge fight between us. But the sad thing is she told all her friends that i cheated on her and use some of my post in the group which i posted as fun as her proof. And she get away with it. Still to this day her friends thinks that i cheated on her.

But after this breakup i was devastated. I was broken. I was even trying to end my life. I was at the lowest point in my life. At this time i also lost my job and become unemployed.which give me more time to overthink and drove myself crazy.I want to end it all. I want to heal.

What I didn’t know was that I was already healing. From the moment I made the difficult decision to end that relationship for good, every minute, every painful emotion, and every flicker of rage or doubt became vital to my ability to become the person I am today. The person I so badly wanted to be.